Insecurity Street

Well guys-

  All I can say is that us doing Personal Progress right now couldn't have been at a better time.  I have decided that I might be one of the most INSECURE people on the face of this planet! I work with a girl that wears the cutest clothes and probably the most perfect body.  I can't help but compare myself to her and wish that I wasn't this "Ogre" with old clothes (That's really how I feel somedays!)  I find that because i am comparing myself to her, I then start comparing myself to every girl- wishing I looked like them, wishing I had that and this, etc. I then found that because of my insecurities with myself, I carried it into my relationship with Andy- fears start springing up and doubt gets the best of me.

  Last night I was about to break down in tears 10 times before I actually did! I just layed on our couch with Andy and just let loose! Telling him all of my fears, bawling like a baby, and he just sat there and listened and held me.  He said something really powerful that I know will stick with me in those times of doubt.  He said, "Does this fear and doubt make you feel good?"  I of course said, "No", and then he very calmly and softly told me, "The Holy Ghost doesn't make you feel this way".  Of course- it was a simple statement, but a statement I needed none-the-less.   Satan tries to make us doubt ourselves- that is his mission.  I can not let him win.  I told him thank you, went into my room and knelt down to pray.  The tears just came streaming down as I felt the presence of my Heavenly Father and Mother.  The feeling I kept having was, "Do Personal Progress".  How true this prompting is.  How needed this program is in my life right now. 

  In the beginning of the Personal Progress book, it says, "Your loving Heavenly Father has blessed you with talents and abilities that will help you fulfill your divine mission. As you learn to accept and act upon the Young Women values in your life, you will form personal habits of prayer, scripture study, obedience to the commandments, and service to others. These daily personal habits will strengthen your faith in and testimony of Jesus Christ. They will also allow you to recognize and develop your unique gifts." I need to recognize and develop my unique gifts now more than ever- but as I read through this paragraph, it struck me that Personal Progress doesn't need to just be for girls ages 12-18, but it is meant for every Women on this world.  I also realized that I need to strengthen all of those areas- prayer, scripture study, obedience to the commandments (and Holy Ghost) and service to others.  I am ready to start this program with a group of devoted women as we all strive to become closer to our Heavenly Father. 

  I hope that everyone that reads this blog will want to join with us as we focus on what is truly important.
Love,
Elise